Another Thursday

Alright so it happened. I had a nice long emotional cry over Marshall... again lol. And it was all because of me not feeling pretty. I'm going to be irrational just for a moment and make a claim that it's my birth control making me all off because I've been really inconsistent with my dosages (I don't have a sex life to scare me into taking them like clockwork) I thought about it a little bit, but I wonder if this is how I ultimately felt after every instance where a guy has broken my heart... I just never sat down long enough to notice because I had a new heart breaking replacement in almost no time...

Today I'm just not staying in my room. An idle mind is the Devil's workshop.

So I've been sick for the last 4 days. Not the flu. Just a chest cold... an elongated one that I blame mostly on the disgusting girls on my floor (some of them have a phobia of flushing the toilet and washing their hands...ick) Anyway I've been alright for the most part. Today I'm just clearing up my lingering congestion. I've actually spent the majority of my time in my room since last Thursday. Nothing overly exciting or mind blowing has happened.

I can't watch movies based on curses anymore. Which is funny because I used to really enjoy scary movies... And now I'm a big wuss... Well at least that's what my friends think. Basically I can't watch movies that are about a deep frightening power based off of the devil or evil or whatever. And no- this has nothing to do with me being saved. In fact I had this notion since some time before becoming a Christian. I had some experiences in Germany, some random encounters on campus... Even when I was younger just creepy shit happened that I still can't explain. I can watch gore and action movies, but scary movies I'm not cool with.

This might be a two part-er... I might come back with more to write. I'm still in my lazy stage of the day.

I hate having to convince myself some days that I'm attractive when other days I just simply KNOW I AM...